When pain becomes your life – Awaken Your power to Heal

I’m constantly looking for patterns and behaviors to examine, feel and heal. It’s a never-ending battle of what is it, who did I blame, how I judge myself for the latest failure to prove to myself that I am worthy. It’s an exhausting process that doesn’t yield the greatest results. I overthink my problems to the point of sleepless nights and worry consumes my every waking moment until I stop and connect to the divine – call all my angels and have a meeting of the Mind, Body and Spirit. In other words, I give myself a break.

When pain becomes your life – How to awaken your power to Heal

I’m constantly looking for patterns and behaviors to examine, feel and heal.  It’s a never-ending battle of what is it, who did I blame, how I judge myself for the latest failure to prove to myself that I am worthy.  It’s an exhausting process that never ends.  I overthink my problems to the point of sleepless nights and worry consumes my every waking moment until I stop and connect to the divine – call all my angels and have a meeting of the Mind, Body and Spirit.  In other words, I give myself a break.  And I reach out for support to get my outer mind to relax into healing – clarity and calm.

If I look at my repeating controlling patterns I realize I keep myself in a victim rut.  I observe others and am inspired by others out in the world making a difference but not me.  Ooh, the martyr rears its ugly head and said patterns repeat once again and ten years go by with regret and disappointment that my life is still in the same place still healing the same issue.  When I finally reach a moment of transformation it’s fleeting and momentary.  I’m never satisfied with the outcome and move back into my victim status.

I could crawl in a hole and pretend that all of this healing work over all of these years doesn’t matter.  It’s simply not true.  The mere fact that I wake up every morning still breathing and connect with another human every day and acknowledge their presence and say their name makes a difference.
I get stuck in “it’s all about poor me” and I forget that I can serve humankind and acknowledge their greatness every day, and make a difference in every moment.

It’s interesting how easy it is for me to see the greatness in another human having a spiritual experience.  It’s easy to see the contributions people are making in their lives and how frustrated I am when my beloveds don’t share their gifts with the world that I can plainly see is needed in the world right now.  It’s also true of myself.

What if we all got off this circle of abuse we put ourselves through on a daily basis and simply acknowledged our presence as a gift to whomever we meet today?  What if right where you are is perfect?  What if there is a greater yet to be for you and you ought to have it?  What if there was no more work to do?  What if you could do what you wanted when you wanted to?  Visualize that!

At the very core, I have hope for humanity.  I return to gratitude and take a deep breath.  And another one, and another one.  From a grateful heart I return to the work of serving humanity and loving myself a little bit more today.  And forgive myself for not moving faster in my life choices and return to my soul for my life’s questions and concerns and receive the wisdom I need to live a fully expressed life.   I acknowledge that my one little voice and presence can make a difference every day, while I’m here on earth even if it serves only one person today.

If you are ready to break some of your controlling patterns and live a more self expressed life, you can join in my Wednesday Healing Circle.  Be part of a community of souls here to wake up to their greatest potential.  Email me at masandagadd@gmail.com if you are interested in freeing yourself and allowing yourself to feel, heal and grow. 

 

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